If you are serious about going back to Goloka Vrindavan in this very lifetime. You should pray to Sri Krishna or Srimati Radharani to help you to free you from your material entanglement. You should pray from your heart and not your false ego, mind or intelligence. This is called full surrender. Without such commitment and attempting to solve your present problem by yourself will be futile. Only the Lord can help you to become free from this material entanglement. It is impossible to become free from our past sins and present sins without full surrender to the Lord.
